New Year's Eve

Yep, tomorrow will be new years nite. My BF having a small party tonight along with his office mates. I stuck in my room finishing some old project. Pretty dull but let see the positive things.. :)

Now, Im thinking about my new years resolution, lets write it down...
1. Eating less noddles n eat healthy (thinking of starting my workout regime, new swimsuit as a start! :))
2. Read 12 books with varied tittle
3. Watch more TV serials (Mad men, Bones, etc)
4. Add 3 new-real-best friends from work
5. Got engaged or even better (ahem!it's sound more like a hope rather than resolution,ha3!)
6. successfully finished my 12 months orientation with awesome remark! :P
7. write more insightful stories on my blog
8. save money consistently every months
9. always enjoy and grateful for everyday ahead! :)
10. Amin!!

Tadaaa...Feeling optimistic!!!

So, I got a job..hehe..

where?

hint: Reputable formula milk company

Feeling : proud, optimistic, enthusiast.

gonna home by night but still got a lot unfinished work with my lecture. Moved from my rented room by 10th January (or earlier) and will start work soon..oh Im excited..

Really hope this job will run well and enjoyable in terms of experience and lesson. The challenges are quite big but Im sooo in it! bismillah..wish me luck guys... :D

Alhamdulillah

I know I cant thank enough..

Allah, alhamdulillah..

U've given me another beautiful gift in such proper time...

a job!! finally! heheee

One thing,

Please do keep me humble for I dont want to be cocky person.

and I hope this job will run very well...

amiiiin.

when I get old

so, i was helping my lecturer on some projectial base work. She is kinda old, well I dont know how old she is but I can tell she is no longer fast and thorough. Perhaps, due to her age it is quite difficult to follow the demand of technology (using computer, etc) in her work. so, she has 4 or 5 flashdisks with different file in it. One for her book project and the other for this and that so she wont get confuse and mixed up. Each file took less that 1 GB in each Flashdisk while the flasihdisk contain 2GB memory. The sad part is, she also needs to put a label on each flashdisk so she wont forget whats inside. :'(

But, event tough she become so forgetful, I still able to recognize her rich knowledge and strong mind. she is still spirited and one clever person I believe. One thing that I pointed out is..how cruel age could do to us? it makes me sad to imagine my self in my old time..become forgetful and slow and confuse and attached from the novelty of life..hiks. I simply hope in those time I will have some one to hold. someone to hug so I wont feel that sad.

I'm not afraid of being old as long as I have people I love around me. Oh I wanna hug someone so bad right now. Hehehe. lets embrace our age and keep updated, our practise in reading will be a help for our memories in the old age. so, keep read and stimulate the brain.

Bruyant

I have questions in my head,
I have doubt, dream, fear and courage...at the same time.
I have nothing in my hand but I want to hold the world.

I need others but I hate to be dependent. stand on my own. always my option. Don't care how helpless I am, I will never depend on you, I read the signs that you are (also) not ready (yet) to assist me in any of my difficulties, in fact, I actually capable of solving my problems on my own. we're equal, I owe you nothing, so lets think it this way.just to make it clear.

Oh I hate delusional idea about relationship.F.

Just so you know, I can feel it anytime there's a distance you create or unwillingness you try to hide. That's all caught by my radar. again. just to make it clear. I will never depend on you. fair square. no worries. :)

Such a night!

Some burglars came into my kosan last night. They stole the host's laptop, cell phones and money. After one of my kosan mate recognize one of them try to open her door, she shoo the burglar away and calls another kosan mate. After the burglar run away, All the girls in my Kosan awake and turn into chatty yet fearfull crowd. such a damn scary night. It appears that those burglars also stole something in the neighboor kosan last night, so I suggest they worked in team.

I hate them they make me afraid. I cant Imagine If they come and approach my window try to open the door, I must be freeze in fear. Ugh.

Now my Host about to turn on the alarm again, which I hope could help a bit.

What I hate most is the fact that I (and all the girls) cant continue our sleep due to this event. And I feel so in-need-of sleep right now...arrrghhh...

I hope those burglar will learn their lesson somehow, their bad deeds will surely back to them. Oh, How i miss a safe environment.

Lets Talk about Formula milk

well, It appears that WHO curbs the baby formula adverts due to some reasons:

1. Breast feed is the best way to feed your baby.
2. It helps the baby to meet its potential needs along the golden developmental phase (exclusively 6 months).
3. It helps the baby from health or mental problem in the future.
4. The increase use of formula milk means the reduce on the breast feeding activity among mothers.

And, Third world nations who are known as the largest formula milk consumer should deal with some threat like:

1. The lack of refrigerator in their households which make the formula milk, once opened, changed in nature.
2. The lack of purified water to mix the formula milk make em' vulnerable from bacteria.

so, the International code of marketing of breast-milk substitute bans any kind of public advertisements of formula milk. The company also not allowed to advertise their products to health facilities or health professionals, or giving samples to pregnant women, young mothers or new families. they also emphasize the importance to put a label that promote the best way to feed babies, through breast feeding. In the other hand, WHO also encouraged women to atleast breast feed their babies exclusively for 6 months.

But, to be fair, Formula milk is actually not a bad thing, it is just not preferable. because, in 2001, WHO release a statement that formula milk if prepared accord with applicable codex of alimentarius (comission made by FAO and WHO for food regulation), then it is nutritionally adequate and safe complimentary food and suitable breast feed substitute under health professional watch.

well, I my self will absolutely try to give my baby exclusive breast feeding, but, I also very open toward any possible difficulties (In which I hope wont happen).

Life Is Beautiful Mr. Schindler...

It was a title of two movies, Life is beautiful ( La vita e bella, played by Roberto Benigni) and Schindler's list. Both are telling the story about Holocaust in Nazi era. sad. I watched the first movie years ago but then I finally have the courage to watch Schindler's list. (yeah I have the tendency to avoid a movie that create discomfort due to it's disturb story or scenes). But, finally I decided to watch it anyway, and Im very satisfied, the movie is good. Cz I love movie that stimulate my emotion , awaken my awareness and taught me good values.

But, I shall make several notes here, of course I adore the acting of Liam neeson (as Oskar Schindler, the Austrian Industrialist who saved 1,100 jews from Auscwitzh), Ben Kingsley (as Mr.Stern), and Ralph Fiennes (as Amon goeth),, Its just..most of the scenes are very disturbing with very strong graphics, killings, shooting, abuse, etc..It made me sick..Ralph Fiennes acting was insane, He played the SS commander who did the crazy random killings and I almost believe He is the real Amon goeth (sick). In the other hand, the story itself been made very realistic, I love the way they build the emotional bonding between Schindler and the workers (in a very implicit way but I can feel it), and I love how there are not too much drama on the movie. I cried several times, due to some heart-breaking scenes that shakes my sense of humanity (so prepare some tissue before you watch it). Btw, You can read the review here.

Liam Neeson as Oskar Schindler

sir Ben Kingsley as Mr. Itszhak Stern, the Jew.

Look famillier? Ralph Fiennesis ( the guy who played Lord Voldemort) as Amon goeth The crazy sick SS.

Overall, this film is good, because the story is good and the values from the story itself made me fall in love with a thing called consciousness. I suppose as a human, we should put our conduct on the base of consciousness so we could use the heart in every of our action. I cant imagine, nor want to imagine, a person like Hitler..as sick as he is..as crazy as he is..become a leader that being loved and feared by his followers, which I think, as sick as He himself.

I cant believe my mind, my eyes..how people could be very blind and cruel and sick like that? well, I actually got the explanation in my social psychology class but I'm too lazy to explain it now..hee..I just love to watch those movie, cz those movie remind me to keep my act on the base on my very own consciousness..thus I wont treat others with bad behavior..thus I wont hurt others in a way I cant forgive my self...Thus I will always respect people, no matter who they are...where they come from or what they do..

It is always right to treat man as human, with respect and love...

Black

just want to cry.like thousands other time.

thank you.

one of The Thing I hate Most

I actually HATE my self very much, when I start to depend on someone.

yeah,right, I don't want bother people in any way. If I can handle it by my self, so be it.

But, sometimes I cant hold my self I need a shoulder to cry.

And at one point that make me hate my self for troubling other people.

I stubbornly want to be an Independent person because I have the fear when one day I suddenly left alone I will lost my balance and collapse. No I don't want that. I want to be strong enough to stand on my own feet and do my own things.

I've seen a betrayal that caused the worst fall of a dependent person. I don't want to add the statistics.

A comforting distraction

The truth is,

I lost my focus on the movie I watched because of the comfort of laying my head on my boyfriend's shoulder.best feeling.ever.

I Hate waiting but I love Trees!!!

I still dont understand people who are being late and make other people wait. How they could do that? I was like havin an appointment this afternoon, at lunch, at 12 Pm sharp. U guess what? this person didnt show up nor reply my text. I've been waiting like 30 minutes by now. Its enough. I cant any longer sitting down with uncertainty hangin on my head staring those stairs where I suppose to meet that person.

C2 Building, the old building at my campus.

I hate people who are late, forgetting their own appointment and super difficult to reach.

Im kind of on time person, mostly early. I respect time and people I will meet, so there it is, I cant tolerate any lateness, especially when it is over 30' min of my patience limit. Whoever the person might be, even a president. once he/she is late it means LATE!!!.

Anyhow, Lets jump into other topic. One day (been months ago) I walk around near Rektorat at my campus (yeah, Im pretty much live in a small world called campus, haha), untill my eyes catch something unique. In the yard of the rektorat, There are Huge tree trunk just Planted around the area, they so big they need scaffolding to hold em. Im so excited coz I love trees and I think It was such a good Idea to plant more Tree in the area (rather than build more concrete building, yeah rite!!). SO, I took a photo of it untill I forgot about the Tree.
The next week when I was at home I watch the news on Tivi about UI's new green program, by planting those Tree!! It appears that the Tree was relocated from Subang and it is originally from Africa and called as the African Baobab. The news said that the trees are impossible to die, cant be burn nor chopped down or anything! cool! It means my grand grand children would probably could see the trees (yep! I hope they go to the same univ. as I do, haha, well, ITB also fine..haha). I hope they dont get cut down like the other Tree around my campus.

The huge Baobab tree. Grow well and enjoy ur stay sir! :)

Berasa Real-time!!

Pernah gak sih lo, minta sesuatu sama yang diatas terus langsung dikasih?. Well, kemaren malem gw agak2 insomnia gitu, susah tidur. Ngglundung kekanan, ga pewe, ngglundung ke kiri, gak pewe juga.udah kaya cacingan gw dikasur gundah gulana gitu.

biasa banget kan tu kalo lagi susah tidur segala pikiran bersliweran mulai dari londrian kapan ditaro sampe besok makan siangnya apa ya?. Itu mending, kemaren yang gw pikirin adalah kabar proses seleksi di perusahaan SH yang gak kunjung ada kabarnya, ampe lumutan gw nungguin. Akhirnya malem kemaren gw mohon2 tuh dalem hati supaya Allah ngasih gw petunjuk besok, pokoknya besok (maksa gila ya gw, hihii). gw minta seenggaknya dikasih clue tentang masa depan gw. apakah harus kekeuh sumekeh kerja dulu atau haruskah gw gambling marambling cari beasiswa. SOalnya gw udah nggak tahan banget men, ni proses seleksi2an di beberapa perusahaan jalannya lambreta banget udah kaya siput kecetit.kagak sampe-sampe.sigh.

Nah, hari ini, tepatnya sore tadi gw ditilpun ama HR nya SH itu, udahlahya opening dan lalla lili...herannya gw santai aja, apapun hasilnya ya itu berarti 'clue' yang dikasih Allah buat gw. Naah, setelah introduction dsb (lo kate opening statement? maklum eyke mantan anak debat, muihihihi), si mbak HR yang baik hati itu bilang.."Maaf ya sepertinya nggak bisa di MT HR kita, soalnya usernya lebih prefer yang satunya..."

Gw ngrasa loss aja gt, tau deh tu gimana jelasinnya, FYI gw emang ngarep gila sama position ini soalnya company-nya oke dan gw liat prospeknya juga mayanlah..tapi abis dikasih kabar gt, gw cuma narik napas panjang sambil berusaha tetep santai (abis aslinya gw emang cool bener deh orangnya, hahaa).

Terus si mbak pun melanjutkan, "tapi point bagusnya.. pas wawancara sama director..blablabalabala...jadi blablabalaba...."

Dan kamipun ngobrol cukup panjang buat tanya ini itu tentang 'blablaba' tersebut. Hmmf, satu hal ya, ketika gw minta sesuatu dan Allah langsung kasih itu, walo gak sesuai harapan, gw berasa seneng loh...berasa ngadunya gw sama yang diatas real-time gt...langsung dijawab! :D

sekarang gw males ngapa2in, efek kabar tadi kali ya..yang pasti gw ikhlas..dan bersyukur juga sih karena ngrasa ditujunkin jalan yang sebaiknya gw tempuh..yaitu nyoba blablabalba itu..hehe..since blablabla juga belom fix, gw males nyebutnye, takut pamali..yang pasti, tetep doain gw ya guys!! mungkin jalan gw emang nggak segampang yang laen, tapi gw yakin..there will be a sweet surprise at the end. amiiin.

Irsa dan Creebo

Tadi siang si Nessi Ovania Widianingrum (bener ga neh spellingnye?) a.K.a Nesbo a.K.a creebo, temen gw dari jaman EsEmPe nyolek2 gw di chat. Terjadilan obrolan berikut (kurang lebih):


I : blablabala
N : blablablabla
I : eh gw punya blog, baca dong
N : nah lo kan pengangguran update aja blognya terus
I : Emang diupdate tiap hari kaliiiii!!! #Jlebb.
N : Hahahaha

Siaul temen gw yang satu ini! gw sumpahin kriting tau rasa! hahaha!
(damn!!, dia emang udah keriting dari lahir.zzz.cari kutukan laen dulu deh..)

ps: blabala itu adalah bagian yang mana saya lupa ngobrolin apa. Haha. geblek.

Fallin for you

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly

I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us

-for my dear Brr for the amazing support over my insomniac and breakdown nights-

Greeny my PC!

Thats My Laptop name. Just got the name a second ago because I think Im gonna need some kind of identification before talk about my laptop. hehe. So here she Is, Greeny. (And yes it a girl!:D).Why Greeny? nothing I just found a bit touch of green color in its Aspire 4751Z logo.




My laptop been with me approximately four years, since the second or third semester at college. She Is my devout companion. My center of work and everything. Ohya before I use this Laptop I used to used Dell netbook (forget the version) which was old enough to be remembered as a hero in my early days at college.

I love my laptop so much I hope she will stay alive for at least the next three or four years. Even tough I believe by that time she will looked very out dated and heavy and old.Hehe. I used to carry her around at campus, every day, in the bestest and worst situation ever. SHe's been loyally with me along the thesis making process, and she's been awesome for staying usable even I almost use her 24 hours 7 days/ week. I do hibernate or shut her down when I not use it. saving energy.

Now, she still doing okay, but one of the left button on the keyboard (I don't know whats it name) kinda broken, I need to push it hard until its work.sigh. I wished I used a mouse so my keyboard wont be broken easily. Ohya, The CD room also seems not comfort to use anymore now it creates Buzzing sounds like a working motor..broom..broom..broomm..added with dramatic shaking all over it. SO, I never use it for watching any dvd or anything, that's why I bought a Phillips dvd player which I love so Much. This Phillips dvd player is my favorite gadget. Hehe. (I can feel my laptop start to get jealous by now, hehe).

I just hope Greeny cant stay with me for any challenges ahead, sorry Greeny I didn't give you a proper care nor proper service, I even too lazy to buy a new PC fan..hee. I Love u somehow.

Mari Hidup Sehat!!! Yosh!

Belakangan setiap lagi makan perut gw terasa perih..kadang perih banget berasa ditonjok bencong yang kagak ada cantik2nya. Ewwh. Semakin lama gw semakin worried, takut kenapa2..kayaknya emang gw maag dan takut makin parah. Padahal disekitar gw ada kisah nyata, kk temen gw atau anak temen bokap gw yang kena maag akut gitu sampe meninggal. Gara2 makan telat, gak teratur dan cuek melulu sampe maag-ya udah parah banget gt deh. (adeew gak mauuu).

Karena itu gw pun mulai belajar buat makan teratur, setiap 4 jam sekali dalam jumlah yang cukup. Walaupun agak susah buat anak kosan kayak gw (males keluar kosan buat cari makan),tapi demi kesehatan akan gw jabanin!! :D

Bismillah, smoga program makan teratur gw sukses dan amit2 pohon kelapa (kagak nyambung,haha) jangan sampe gw kena penyakit yang serem2!!.

Ayo Sehat Kuat Setiap Saat!! (setel musik, SKJ!!)

Oem-Oem Genitch!! (eewwh)

Okay, gw barusan terinspisari sama blog seseorang yang udah jadi buku itu loh. Bukan, Bukan yang bawa-bawa nama hewan itu. Tapi yang kocak dan bikin ketawa, nyeritain ttg pengalaman bankir gt (Halah sok rahasia banget! judulnya bankir sesa(a)t! ) hehehe.

Gw terinspirasi buat nyeritain pengalaman yang unik, pengalaman aseli, pake teks bahasa Indonesia (ada yang lempar kamus kegirangan) . well, pengalamannya bukan pengalaman lucu sih, tapi pengalaman unik. tentang sahabat gw pas kuliah yang Te O Pe Be Ge Te (TOP BGT!).

Ceritanya, sekitar taun 2008 akhir gw jadi project officer sebuah acara dikampus. Entah kenapa tu acara seret banget dapet sponsor. Padahal gw sudah mengerahkan sabahat gw (bukan nepotisme ya tp emang susah cari panitia, haha) buat jadi Danus, sebut aja sabahat gw itu si Cina-pinter-cantik-berjiwakepemimpinan-sedikit-jutek. Nah, dia udah berusaha tuh mengerahkan tim danusnya, tapi emang dasar jaman lagi resesi ya bok (taon 97 udah lewat kalee, alasan!), susaaah banget, padahal tu acara udah mepet butuh suntikan dana segar (tsaah).

Untungnya, gak berapa lama si Cina-pinter-cantik-berjiwakepemimpinan-sedikit-jutek ini ketemu dengan seorang bapak-bapak di sebuah event. Bapak-bapak ini ternyata penyumbang dana yang potensial, nah si temen langsung tuh promosi acara kita. Pucuk dicinta ulam pun Tiba!! tu Bapak yang notabene salah satu direktur wahana-tempat-bermain-yang-rame-itu setuju buat mengucurkan dana sebesar 5 juta rupiah tanpa syarat apapun!!!. (prok3).

Pas temen gw ngabarin berita ini, kita langsung heboh seneng bikin syukuran (gak denk! lebay). Pokonya tinggal tunggu urusan sama sekretarisnya langsung transfer. Gw lega. (ngelap keringet).

Anehnya, beberapa hari kemudian si temen mulai merasa aneh, si Bapak itu jadi rajin telpon dan sms. Gw pun mulai curiga dan teman gw mulai tersiksa. Kamipun mulai bingung. Mana tu duit kagak ditransper2. set daah.

keanehan nggak berhenti sampe situ aja, temen gw bilang duit bakal ditransper bentar lagi, tapi si Bapak ngajak dia lunch dong bok! akhirnya tu Bapak udah gak layak dipanggil Bapak lagi, karena tingkahnya yang menurut kami kecentilan dan mulai gak wajar, kami sepakat buat manggil doi Om-Om genitch atau disingkat OOG!!. Karena butuh banget tu duit sponsorship, temen gw pun rela makan bareng si OOG di sebuah restoran jepang ternama di Jakarta. Tadinya gw menawarkan bantuin buat nemenin si temen bareng pasukan sekompi, tapi temen gw emang berani banget bok, diapun akhirnya memutuskan pergi bareng pacarnya.

Pokoknya hari itu gw rada worried deh, perasaan gw gak karuan dan perut gw mules2 melulu (emang abis makan pedes sih). Gw takut dia kenapa-napa, yah walopun makan barengnya siang-siang tapi kan tetep aja ya bok. Parno gw!!

Keesokannya pas dikampus temen gw cerita, kemaren makan sama tuh si OOG, cowoknya jagain gak jauh dari TKP. Katanya sih ngobrol2 biasa, cerita tentang keluarga dan ini itu. Tapi kata temen gw, si OOG sempet mau pegang tangannya gitu (pas denger gw langsung emosi siapin golok sama clurit!!!), untung si temen dengen lihai menunjukkan ketidaksukaannya. Intinya, kayaknya si OOG nyadar bahwa temen gw bukan tipe cewek yang bisa digitu2in (dipegang tangannya maksut gw, hihihi) dan dia gak bakal dapet apapun dari temen gw. Akhirnya mereka pun kembali mengobrol ke hal2 yang standar dan di akhir makan siang yang nyeremin-banget-buat-temen-gw itu si OOG berjanji untuk segera mentransper uang sponsorshipnya. Semua berjalan baik dan nampaknya si OOG mengurungkan apapun niat buruknya.

Gw lega. Aseli lega banget temen gw gak kenapa2. Selain itu gw juga terharu, temen gw itu emang keren dan loyal banget deh, doi dengan setia nemenin gw yang waktu itu lagi kacau takut tu acara gak jadi, dia emang hebat! sahabat gw yang lain juga hebat!! totally stand behind my back when I was attacked from all direction (curcol, masalalu, no offense sekarang mah damaiii,hihihi).

Dan gak berapa lama tu duit sponsor dikirim dong! hebat ga tuh pengorbanan temen gw demi dapet sponsorship dan demi bantuin gw??! wow, nih gw kasih bintang jasa (pin UI yang 3500-an!hehe).

inti cerita ini adalah, bukan fakta bahwa OOG emang ada ya (secara ini mah nenek2 jago kungfu juga tau) tapi bahwa ketika lo berada di saat yang sulit, sahabat adalah orang yang ngasih lo kemudahan...gak heran kan gw sayang banget sama sahabat gw ini!! smooch!.

Ps: 1. sekarang doi calon credit analyst officer di bank swasta ternama di Indonesia (keren ga tuh?!).
2. Gw bawa2 kata Cina bukan gw rasist! tapi justru karena temen gw emang Cina dan karena gw kagum sama kinerjanya orang Cina yang ulet, tangguh dan somehow kulitnya putih2 banget!!(mulai sirik,hihihi).

XOXO

Touched in The heart

I woke up late.

Took bath

and fastly went to FKM for a simple med check-up cz I need to issue this letter that stating about my good health condition.

Its funny though how we cud decide someone is healthy by checkin the blood pressure and tongue color only.Hehe. Whatevs I was glad It didnt take Long. It was also cheap only took 15thousands rupiah for the paper.

Now I'm listening to random songs from my play list in my rented room. I am feeling better.

Sekolah tinggi-tinggi

Ada temen yang bilang, ngapain sekolah tinggi2? toh mostly milyuner di dunia itu juga para Drop-outers. Well, kalo dari awal niatnya emang kaya, ya emang bukan sekolah jawabannya, melainkan usaha a.k.a belajar jadi enterpreneurship.

Kalo sekolah tinggi2 itu emang nggak ngejamin seseorang buat kaya, jadi kudunya orang2 yang sekolah sampe ke negeri Cina itu niatnya ya emang buat mencari ilmu. Insyalloh jadi harta di akherat kalo ilmunya bermanfaat.

Jadi jangan mendiskreditkan orang yang lagi sekolah tinggi2 cuman gara2 teorinya beberapa motivator bisnis dong. Emang niat dan hasilnya beda, dari awal kalee.

sekali lagi catet ya tet, orang2 yang pada sekolah tinggi2 itu belom tentu niatnya pengen jadi kaya kaleee....