High Hopes and lovely days

I've been planning to leverage my life by doing things i've never or not dare to do yet. I actually able to see some challenges ahead I should face, like it or not. Kinda stress out but still trying to keep it cool. I also just bought some books that I hope will have the time to read em. recently, after working, my book preference shifted from random novel into marketing-theme-books, yaay! I hope it is considered as an improvement. hehe.

I love marketing, it is a real challenging world and fun and creative...but..it is not really my cup of tea. I've hint it before that I dont plan to spend my whole life building career in a company. rather, my thing is at school..teaching, writing, reading, discussing..questioning every single theoritical base that form our knowledge. yep, that is my thing. I KNOW. well, meaby not that heavy but I far enjoy reading journals than planning marketing strategy. I hope one day I'll be able to make a bigger use of my self, which i believe will possible if i pursue my master and so on and so on.

I shall wait though, wait untill the time is right the chance is there and i am ready.

in the mean time, i'll just do my best at work, because, believe it or not, i Love my job.hehehe. Now, Iam in a specific marketing area and kinda struggle on one project. Handling a product and make sure this product will hit success...whoaa..excited but fearful too..

anyway, ramadhan is coming..alhamdulillah..this year been full with bless for me...too much i cant count it..really lookin forward for ramadhan to come..i hope i will be able to be better in this holy month..Im excited..to get closer to God.

A BIG heart

Such a difficult thing uh?.

to hold our tears and stay strong
to hold our anger and stay calm
to hold our ego and stay listen

But, I always want to learn to have a big heart. How hard it is, i'll learn to hang on act wise.

It is not easy when someone look down on me, it hurts when i was treated badly like u Iam not worth of their respect. so hurt. hurt. But again, I want to have a big heart. :)

every single thing that bring me down, will be a fuel of energy to prove my best. I'll work hard to make my wings fly so that they will realize how far I've left them. Hopefully, people who treat other people badly will feel ashamed of themselves.

Bigger Than

I am bigger than this

bigger than the world

bigger than the need to be recognize

bigger than all troubles ahead

bigger that my easily hurt feeling

bigger than my energy fluctuation

and I am Big enough to make a change...

-let's make a small change-

Reorganizing Plan

I should confess that my life plan is been a mess up. But, I've decided to reorganize everything, from scartch and here I am, listing those whole plan for the next ten years...hehe.

I love today,
Im excited in thinking about what i will face next
some of those plan are still overlapping and oppose each other
but God knows whats best

Hopefully these plan will run very well

it takes courage to even write my dream down on a paper, im fear of unable to fulfill it or drag too far from them, but again, lets just do our best and follow where our fate bring us...nothin to lose though..

the bad and the good things are part of life.