Selasa, 26 Maret 2013

Team work

Having a baby,
Me and My husband suddenly become even stronger team-mate, like there's a totally new team-work nature happening. A good one. we balancing our time, me doing all the breast feeding and nappy change, while he should go back and forth every weekend JKT-CRB. when he is in Cirebon he will do his best to take care of Aubrey, wake up at night with me, change her diapers and put her back into sleep.
 
I see him as a very supporting partner and loving father, which I knew long before and glad for. :)
when the after opt pain were starting, he sat next to my bed, hold my hand like he walk with me trough all the way long...when I have to breast feed Aubrey, which is also hurt, He again hold my hand and support me to keep going, telling me that Iam a great Mom...when night is coming and I have to wake up and I didn't have the energy, he told me to go back to sleep and he take care of Aubrey.. :")
 
I can se from his eyes, he feel what I feel, all the tough pain I've been through and I think he love me even more..for I love him even more too. We both respect each other in doing this parenting Job and it reflected on how we frequently share information regarding our baby...and we surely become an avid googler. one day Aubrey was having a flu, so I googled on how to handle that, and he always text me asking how Aubrey's doing..until the issue settled, Aubrey is now back into health..
 
 
Being a parent, for me, is a heavy thing..but...
Im very sure, baby we will be cool parent and work this out... :)

Minggu, 24 Maret 2013

Iam a Mom

Holla..

I am now a mom..
My baby daughter was  born on March 3rd 2013 with C-section labour.
We named her Aubrey Azkadina Rivai..

it was a joyful moment having her, seeing her for the first time and successfully having IMD after the opt...

whilst, there's another story behind that..
After months of planning for normal birth, it appears that the doctor suggest for C-sect option because of some medical concern. After that suggestion, the next day we decided to have the opt. in Mitra Plumbon Hospital.

I was kinda nervous for never have it planned, thinking about the opt table and the risk and etc..kinda sligthly freak me out. But, Have to face it after all.. so at 1 pm I enter the opt room, which is crazy cold and being cathethered and should wait for 2 hours because the doc having another labour downstairs..sucks because my husband cant enter the opt room..so there I were alone, almost having hypothermia in the opt room..

Anyway, I never really thinking what is being a mother except having a cute adorable baby in my arm. Surpriiiiiiseeee.... I was in total shock...
After the opt done and the anaesthetic was off, I start to feel the excruciating pain, I cant move, my breast were heavily engorge and it painful like hell..while..I have to breastfed my baby..while  breastfeeding was also super painful because first-timer feeding make the nip crack and create lesion.. triple the pain, and I should keep going..

And after that, being heavily fatigue and catch a cold, I have to wake up every 2 hours to do the breastfeed routine..it was tough..physically and emotionally draining..there was night when I was shivering in cold, almost cant wake up for I don't have the energy but my baby is thirsty..so I woke up and breastfed her, holding all the pain that scream in my body..I was almost gave up and plan to give her formula milk, thanks to my husband who always support and strengthen me, that bad bad bad idea went sour fast, :).

Alhamdulillah, I've recovered, get back into health and adjusting my schedule...now, I am feeling serene, I've dealt with this motherhood routine. I don't know other mother story, but this is mine, and yes for me the first weeks was tough..but all the stretch mark, pain, nip crack and fatigue are worth..the peaceful face of my baby..

Mommy loves you very much Aubrey, we can do it together..
Now I know how hard being a mother is...