Dear Human...

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'There's always things that make us feel sad, down and upset. Just dont let it beat you. Life is bigger than that and if you seek carefully, a ray spot of positivism must be exist somewhere. wake up early and measure your day thoroughly, count the bad and the good part, decide which will win, the good part or the bad part?'.


-love-

Think Before

so, i have this awkward moment when i regret what i've said, my intention was to make it sounds as a joke, which it appears it is not sound as a joke at all. not even funny. i wish i never said that. that sucks.
some might suggest me to think before say anything, but as i experienced, our mouth run faster than our thought. so, it is like asking a chicken to race with a horse. err..okay that's one weird analogy..haha..
well, what I'm saying is, we cant be funny all the time, so just spill it and see whether the joke crack a laugh or not. its normal. dont think it too much. but damn i do think about it and it bothers me...hehe.
conclusion is, I'm good at giving advice but not in practising it..hyehyehyeee..I'am still at the office btw and this past week always stays atleast untill 7 pm..it come into a point where in cant differenciate where my living place actually is..zzzgghh. Good news is, im feeling fine doing this and being here.. :P

So This is it...

Well, I never really imgaine what is it feel like to be working and what is actually we do when we work. It appears, what we do is basically like doing assignments at school, difference is the assignments are never stops and it sequentially come with no one really supervise us. I was doing this presentation for my division and last night i was staying at 22.00 pm. it was so quiet, i just heard sound of keyboard clicking. such an experience.

on my way home (well, its not a home it is kosan actually) i saw the lights from skyscraper building, the blitz light from cars that passing by and the sound of construction worker near my office. it was weird, i al most feel nothing. numb like there's nothing to fear or worried about. all i was thinking was, I want something different. something totally liberating....

there's a lot of things that i ideally want but i cant do. the more loose and free-spirit character in me that somehow always dancing around inside my mind. usually come at my spare time.hehe. the idea of wearing light floral dress, carrying Mp3 player and running here and there like there's nothing hold me. which of course not possible yet, cz im doing a 9 to 5 routine just like billions other people.

well, for me, life is an occasional bitch. i gotta deal with oh-so-serious-life-is. i feel like the more i grown up, the harder life gets. I'm so dead if i keep letting my self goes into this forever. the idea of being a company employee is not my cup of tea, it is a mere way of survival. it doesnt mean i took it lightly and doesnt put my best effort at work, it just i want, believe, and plan on something else. we'll see..

Back To The capital

After months of struggle to live in a small quiet town by my self, finally Im back to jakarta, where my friends and boyfriend are...welcome back social life! :)

working in the office sure is different than those in the field, i enjoy in the office better. everything seems more relaxing and under control..well, for me..

btw, i realized that i'm kind of person who doesnt have a tight control over my self, i could often get so loose and drfiting away in a place and environment. sometime i feel like i want to do something but those keep stuck in my mind only.

jakarta, with it's outragous number of malls surely offer a total different life style than when i was in the small town. I ate fancy foods, visiting pretty places, spend more money here and there..hehe.
I like the idea of exploring this city,but i dont really like the idea of wasting my money on almost-daily-luxuries-treat..I want to save..yep, i want to save for i have a BIG plan next year...

I hope atleast I am able to gain more control over my money, haha it is so hard to save money, but, I will try hard to plan my financial situation better...thats what i called as control! :)

Awaken..

Inspiration could come from anywhere, could it?. Well,mine come from a friend..and so many other people who fight for their dream. I left my battle, I stop fighting...

But now, I' am thinking to go back and fight again...my battle, my war..

every cells in my body, the drum beat of my heart is calling...

it is so strong I can no longer ignore it

it takes a lil longer to prepare my self but i'll be back...

bismillah.

valenciagranada.

Am I lazy Girl?

What is the parameter to define which is lazy and which is not. I always want to push my self harder, stays up late, wake up very early..but..it appears i cant..

I cant push my self too hard, I need to enjoy my brief of time.

I thought I am one kind of workaholic person, Im not sure, I love to sleep early and wake up lil bit late, I even cant sleep less than 6 hours. Well, if life is this short, I wont time slides out of my control, As long as everything is handled I'll just chillax...doing a balance life...

Learn To have a Big Heart

I, promise my self to learn to be a nice, helpful and genuine person. It is not easy when being selfish and arrogant seems so automatically plant in our behavioral system. But, character is a process of becoming, so, bismillah...I want to be useful for others in so many ways....

I want to be someone one could depend on, share and proud of...

I'm kind of person who believe that if we help or make people happy than there must be someone out there that will bring us the equal happiness..that the way universe works....

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