I want to Explode

yep, I almost explode.

not because a bundle of Joy

but because my mind trick me into some kind of very depressing reasoning in handling a problem.

I know, I know I shall chillax...

It appears I am more a-submissive- person than I thought.

damn!.

Life oh Life

Today is quite tiring to me. I spend a lot of energy.
surprise is, something that I've let go is coming back, changing the dynamic of my plan.
while everything shall be adress in such tight timing.

a night to decide such big decision, with as big as mysterious possibility. possibility of huge loss and big winning.
rawrh!!!! .

I am tired, and clueless, and agitated.