The Only Exception

I might hurt

Might stumble

bleed

whatever

but Spirit cant die...

spirit cant die...


:)

-love my BF n family way too much-

lalalaugh my as* hard!

I love my friend at the office

I got Uwi , a self-claimed- swan wanna be..

I got Mitha who her Big eyes look like a tarsius

and I got My self

who sometimes look like an ugly duckling or whatever...

it just funny to have them around, we could create a creative yet a amusing joke to enlight the day...

bravo! lets laugh more and joke even more...

Burn out

i feel like I hate my nights

I hate I lost my phone signal everytime i come to my kosan

I hate I feel so dull here

I hate I forget to be grateful

I hate time doesnt give me much change

I hate the fact that burden me that heavy

I want a lighter wings

to fly

and

I want stronger wind

to take me away

the big plan

spend the weekend with my family, attending my bf's sister wedding. tired-like-hell. here I am again, in Jkt doing my daily office hours..whew, I am getting bigger and older..Iam 23 now and feels like..umm..nothing really change. some of my friends already see me as grown up, they said i act mature..so the addition on my age wont do much difference, right?.hehe

anyway, alhamdulillah everything run well in my life..got one big plan for next year and i hope it will be easy and smooth process...

visiting jogja next weekend for a product launch, i should make sure everything is under control and succeed. wish me luck... :P

The day

My birthday went quite well

had a nice dinner with my boyfriend at Thamrin street

we walked

enjoy some ice cream

and ate tasty foods

he gave me a white-pink-striped running shoes

I had a great time....


:)

Born day

Time flies so fast and I cant pull the break to stop it.hehe. I know tomorrow gonna be my 23rd birthday. well, i'm feeling fine, not too much happy or whatever. I simply grateful for all the things God given me. every single thing means a lot to me.

The day I cried and almost give up, the day I decided to fight back and pull my self together again, the day I feel so lonely (which happen quite often), The day I feel proud of my self, The day I feel so pretty, the day I feel somehow ugly, The day I lost courage and found it again, The day im in love with my Bf and the day I hate him (hehe), The day I misses my family and the day I just want to be alone,The day I feel insecure and the day I feel so confident...

those days made my year...and I'am so blessed...

thanks God. Alhamdulillah.

But God, can I ask one thing?

one wish you know I always hope for...amen!

Emotion

why there's a story we cant forget?
Anger we can't erase...
Tears we can't shed away...

Things we can't let go....

It is so hurt to remind that past when I felt so not appreciated for work I've been doing so hard...

I want to forgive
I do
I did btw...

I just cant forget the pain, it keep coming back whenever I remember that event...

but its okay though..

anger creates energy inside me. it burns. real hard.

:)

Kind of Movie I want my children To watch

I love watching movies and this cartoon is my new favourite.The story taught us to have trust towards ourself and being just what we are even when we are so different from others. so inspiring, and the ideas are awesomely quirky. Training bunch of Dragons and the whole Viking thingy? I love it.

I want my children (future children) to see this kind of movie so that they realized that in life, they are allowed to be different from others. to be brave and bold in being themselves. :)

Man are not logical, they're psychological...

so,someone said the above title to me or maybe i heard it somewhere. it is so true that becoming a human is a matter of complication. we have a complicated reasoning with equally complicated problems. therefore, we have to be careful in making a decision for it might end up badly. but, if we think it further, why worries about bad thing while we knew that God has build the grand design of our life's. with that logic, we supposedly just put ourselves in every scenario God has made, even the worst one.

well, what i realized is, i sometimes (or most of the time) is lost. I don't know exactly what i want, or sometimes just not sure in getting it. in some occasion, i even cant stop failing my self for things that i actually capable of doing. and that psychological. normally, when my mood is okay, I'll look jolly good most of the time. But when I'm not in the good mood, I began to question what i am doing? is this really what i want and need? can or cant i do this?, there goes the philosophical questions.

that must be so obvious from my post. how I question myself a lot. I see it as two things, one i might truly digging deep to know my destination, second it is simply an unconscious mechanism I use to fail my self because I'm not confident enough or not ready to face some consequences.

what's sucks?

it is not when you want a cute dress but flat broke and you cant buy it, what's sucks is when it is holiday but you gotta spend it alone. i cant go home, the timing is difficult, so i lost the point of holiday. what is this for? 24 hours by my self. well, i dont wanna be bitter, sure there's a lot things i cud do alone. yawn.

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