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After almost a year gone from this lovely page.

This is my first attempt to continue writing.

Well, It's been a year, many things happen.

Most of all, my life now is evolving around my baby daughter,

Aubrey the brave, one adventurous girl.

She grow fast, pick things fast, sweet as honey and delightful as warm morning sunshine. 

I love her big time.

while, lets talk about growing up.

am about to have my 26th birthday on June.

another 4 years and I'll be 30 something. whoa. time tricked me.

I thought am still at my 21-esque of age. anyway, it doesnt really matter though. I am still the same person, just better. especially in motherhood area.

I still working at the some company, cook for my baby, read her story, play with her with attention, and manage those daily bits of her from feeding time checking into nutrition status. well, everything basically.

Being a mother did boost my confidence for the fact that it stretch my yardstick of capability. things that I thought I cant, proved as I so very can.

grateful. everything going so well. alhamdulillah.

High Hopes and lovely days

I've been planning to leverage my life by doing things i've never or not dare to do yet. I actually able to see some challenges ahead I should face, like it or not. Kinda stress out but still trying to keep it cool. I also just bought some books that I hope will have the time to read em. recently, after working, my book preference shifted from random novel into marketing-theme-books, yaay! I hope it is considered as an improvement. hehe.

I love marketing, it is a real challenging world and fun and creative...but..it is not really my cup of tea. I've hint it before that I dont plan to spend my whole life building career in a company. rather, my thing is at school..teaching, writing, reading, discussing..questioning every single theoritical base that form our knowledge. yep, that is my thing. I KNOW. well, meaby not that heavy but I far enjoy reading journals than planning marketing strategy. I hope one day I'll be able to make a bigger use of my self, which i believe will possible if i pursue my master and so on and so on.

I shall wait though, wait untill the time is right the chance is there and i am ready.

in the mean time, i'll just do my best at work, because, believe it or not, i Love my job.hehehe. Now, Iam in a specific marketing area and kinda struggle on one project. Handling a product and make sure this product will hit success...whoaa..excited but fearful too..

anyway, ramadhan is coming..alhamdulillah..this year been full with bless for me...too much i cant count it..really lookin forward for ramadhan to come..i hope i will be able to be better in this holy month..Im excited..to get closer to God.

lalalaugh my as* hard!

I love my friend at the office

I got Uwi , a self-claimed- swan wanna be..

I got Mitha who her Big eyes look like a tarsius

and I got My self

who sometimes look like an ugly duckling or whatever...

it just funny to have them around, we could create a creative yet a amusing joke to enlight the day...

bravo! lets laugh more and joke even more...

the big plan

spend the weekend with my family, attending my bf's sister wedding. tired-like-hell. here I am again, in Jkt doing my daily office hours..whew, I am getting bigger and older..Iam 23 now and feels like..umm..nothing really change. some of my friends already see me as grown up, they said i act mature..so the addition on my age wont do much difference, right?.hehe

anyway, alhamdulillah everything run well in my life..got one big plan for next year and i hope it will be easy and smooth process...

visiting jogja next weekend for a product launch, i should make sure everything is under control and succeed. wish me luck... :P

The day

My birthday went quite well

had a nice dinner with my boyfriend at Thamrin street

we walked

enjoy some ice cream

and ate tasty foods

he gave me a white-pink-striped running shoes

I had a great time....


:)

what's sucks?

it is not when you want a cute dress but flat broke and you cant buy it, what's sucks is when it is holiday but you gotta spend it alone. i cant go home, the timing is difficult, so i lost the point of holiday. what is this for? 24 hours by my self. well, i dont wanna be bitter, sure there's a lot things i cud do alone. yawn.

courtesy: http://fav.me/d1zq47f

Back To The capital

After months of struggle to live in a small quiet town by my self, finally Im back to jakarta, where my friends and boyfriend are...welcome back social life! :)

working in the office sure is different than those in the field, i enjoy in the office better. everything seems more relaxing and under control..well, for me..

btw, i realized that i'm kind of person who doesnt have a tight control over my self, i could often get so loose and drfiting away in a place and environment. sometime i feel like i want to do something but those keep stuck in my mind only.

jakarta, with it's outragous number of malls surely offer a total different life style than when i was in the small town. I ate fancy foods, visiting pretty places, spend more money here and there..hehe.
I like the idea of exploring this city,but i dont really like the idea of wasting my money on almost-daily-luxuries-treat..I want to save..yep, i want to save for i have a BIG plan next year...

I hope atleast I am able to gain more control over my money, haha it is so hard to save money, but, I will try hard to plan my financial situation better...thats what i called as control! :)

Am I lazy Girl?

What is the parameter to define which is lazy and which is not. I always want to push my self harder, stays up late, wake up very early..but..it appears i cant..

I cant push my self too hard, I need to enjoy my brief of time.

I thought I am one kind of workaholic person, Im not sure, I love to sleep early and wake up lil bit late, I even cant sleep less than 6 hours. Well, if life is this short, I wont time slides out of my control, As long as everything is handled I'll just chillax...doing a balance life...

A grown up decision

It is not easy to be a grown up. Problems become our daily encounter and it is not always easy to response towards such difficult situation with wise. sometimes, our mind and our heart just say different ideas. I've been thinking lately, take such a huge decision is not easy...

it took courage and sacrifice, but whats important is i am feeling happy and enjoy...
It is only a matter of choice and I choose to look for something that make me smile, something that i passionate about....

bismillah, may God strengthen me...
gonna meet a quite tough situation, I should face no matter what....

Jolly Good.. :D

I'm feeling fine and content, kinda on fire...
My mood been positive and I feel strong. if i contemplate the fluctuation of my moods, I'm afraid i'l fall into bipolar disorder category...hehe..I hope it's just because the pressure only... :p

anyway, goin home soon and I'm excited..
my lil sister gonna have her national exam and I really hope she will doing it well... :D

my holiday gonna be fun, I can feel it...

Happy-Holiday-soon peeps!

kisses.

aargh

I've been devoutly face my Pc in order to make my quartal 1 presentations. It's been almost the whole day and my head get dizzy. still managing the framework and contents..hopefully it will be done by tomorrow..atleast 80% of it..now, I'll just enjoy the rest of my weekend time...

in the mean time, I wish you guys pray me tons of luck...


heee

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Frankly speaking...

Iam one of those who are unsure about what I will be at the end...still figuring it out while doing this. Yep,it is a commitment I took and I will do it with full responsibility. I simply hope I wont be too dragged away with this, instead, I hope I'll keep my passion and dream alive. One day I will continuing my education,get a master degree and start my own business. Those are what I called as dream that aligned with my passion: knowledge and creativity.

I enjoy learning (academically) as I enjoy researches. they sharpen my judgement and shape my reasoning. I simply love being a hoplessly curious person. In other hand, I also love designing and freed my wild ideas into something fun and creative. It is bit sad to realize how little time I have to read and draw. :'(

well, I learnt a lot these days. I knew I've been complaining a lot about how this took a toll on my physical condition. I also very much stressed out due to daily-always-come-up-problems I should face.

But, just now I talked with my friend, a nice and lovely girl (well, not really,haha!) who isnpired me with her work ethic. well, she might work at the office, but I believe it is actually as tiring as workin on the field. she is a friend I met when we're in the selection process for my company. She was accepted as MT HR for one of my company CBU. So, I just talked with her (through BBM sih, hee) and I know she is such a workaholic. a severe one I might call. hehe.it just amazing to see her passion in working while looking just 'fine'. haha. Frankly speaking, I am a bit ashamed of my self for being such a spoilt girl who complaint a lot..hahaa...I know out there, a lot people who work harder than me...

so, from now on, I promise I'll try to lessen my complaints and choose to see the bright side...the bright side..the bright side............. :)

Homo socius

Being an extrovert simply means need the existence of others to stimulate the mind. And being alone in place this wide doesnt feel like a happy sunny day. I sometimes forget what to remember, pursue and fight for. But, thanks god to technology I cud see some people I need to see.

I feel like my life is getting serious but less people are with me. It is not really the ideal for me because I am type of family girl plus heavy level extrovert who needs family n friends surround her. and it could gets me crazy sometimes.

anyhow, I find that money doesnt not that worth to fight for. I know that a lot of things in life will only be gain with money but when in the other hand I had to make sacrifice this big, I feel like pursue something on thin air, there's nothing but a vogue fog.

Im kind of person that want to do this life to the fullest, meaningful and essential. And what I think important is being with my family, watching my lil sisters grow, make sure my mom and dad are okay, support them whenever they need. Built my own family, being a loving and care mother, a good wife and content. I dont like the feeling when everything seems sliding so fast I lose the control of time.I lost the grasp of reality. yep, I lost the control of time.

and If Im brave enough I wont be this enthusiastics in pursuing my career, yep, Im coward enough to start and manage my own life. Do things I totally like..start a business in creative industry or pursuing master. damn I hate to confess but I cant let go this because I also has responsibilities to fulfill.

Yep, Life is about choices, I try to complaint less because I actually also grateful for what I have now but sometimes it just so hard to realize whatever choices we have there always one we 'had' to choose....

me these days..

sorry for lack of update, been busy with my job. Being here in a small town with a very high mobility job makes me kinda loose. I sometimes just flew and doing things daily with no real grasp on what is actually going on.haha. This job is so mental. I could drive for 12 hours from place to place and meet with so many people that I sometimes dont even remember. well,it is a start..I'll just try my best and see where it goes..but again being totally alone is not good for my mind.haha.


okay,these are some pic from places I visited

way up the mountain and very remote place

I know being alone sometimes feel overwhelming but I'll just beat it. I dont mind work hard for one day I'll get the bestest lesson. cherrios, hopefully I can keep my mood and energy into positivity. bismillah.

How I miss

do you really know when you want or not wanting something?
do you flight or resist when you simply exhausted?
do you choose to fight or give up when you know something might hurt you?

oh

how i miss
a simpler life

Feel like a G6! G6! G6!

Its been like a month of working lots of new things i got. The people, The new environment, the challenge. well, there are also several bumping road I ad to travel and pass it somehow. Totally ups and down. real tough for mental. haha

I am now in a small town called purworejo, starting my first quartal and stay in a small house near the road. Its fine though, I love a quiet place with nice people. there are lots of dull moments here but thanks god I got several nice new friends that atleast reducing the pathetic and lonely feeling here. well, i am new in town, dont blame me for feeling dull. hehe.

anyway, like i said before, the journey aint easy. quite rough but we'll see.

it opens adamn huge window called reality, with the difference color from one people to another. it could sharpen our judgement nor hurt the very naive expectation of our ideal. funny.

like I said, we'll see...may God the gracious and merciful always be with me. Amen!.

First day at work

Due to my profession now I assigned in Purwokerto. I will be responsible for some of area in this city. It is my first day, quite impressed with my supervisor, she's the kind of leader I want to be, tough and ambitious.Haha.

gotta learn a whole lot but Im psyched. It is about being a half full glass. open and keep down to earth.

Jogja..Jogjaa...

Pause

I feel like in a pause. a moment when I can take some time to see around, contemplating my life. Im so grateful, always. but yeah it is not life if there is no problem in it. still deal with the same issue. trying to response as normal as possible.

I'm feelin optimistics about my life, hit Jakarta soon, starting my work.


In the mean time, I just want to enjoy this holiday (in my home with my family) before I get so busy at work and cant go home that often.

happy holiday.

Tadaaa...Feeling optimistic!!!

So, I got a job..hehe..

where?

hint: Reputable formula milk company

Feeling : proud, optimistic, enthusiast.

gonna home by night but still got a lot unfinished work with my lecture. Moved from my rented room by 10th January (or earlier) and will start work soon..oh Im excited..

Really hope this job will run well and enjoyable in terms of experience and lesson. The challenges are quite big but Im sooo in it! bismillah..wish me luck guys... :D