Being an extrovert simply means need the existence of others to stimulate the mind. And being alone in place this wide doesnt feel like a happy sunny day. I sometimes forget what to remember, pursue and fight for. But, thanks god to technology I cud see some people I need to see.
I feel like my life is getting serious but less people are with me. It is not really the ideal for me because I am type of family girl plus heavy level extrovert who needs family n friends surround her. and it could gets me crazy sometimes.
anyhow, I find that money doesnt not that worth to fight for. I know that a lot of things in life will only be gain with money but when in the other hand I had to make sacrifice this big, I feel like pursue something on thin air, there's nothing but a vogue fog.
Im kind of person that want to do this life to the fullest, meaningful and essential. And what I think important is being with my family, watching my lil sisters grow, make sure my mom and dad are okay, support them whenever they need. Built my own family, being a loving and care mother, a good wife and content. I dont like the feeling when everything seems sliding so fast I lose the control of time.I lost the grasp of reality. yep, I lost the control of time.
and If Im brave enough I wont be this enthusiastics in pursuing my career, yep, Im coward enough to start and manage my own life. Do things I totally like..start a business in creative industry or pursuing master. damn I hate to confess but I cant let go this because I also has responsibilities to fulfill.
Yep, Life is about choices, I try to complaint less because I actually also grateful for what I have now but sometimes it just so hard to realize whatever choices we have there always one we 'had' to choose....
I feel like my life is getting serious but less people are with me. It is not really the ideal for me because I am type of family girl plus heavy level extrovert who needs family n friends surround her. and it could gets me crazy sometimes.
anyhow, I find that money doesnt not that worth to fight for. I know that a lot of things in life will only be gain with money but when in the other hand I had to make sacrifice this big, I feel like pursue something on thin air, there's nothing but a vogue fog.
Im kind of person that want to do this life to the fullest, meaningful and essential. And what I think important is being with my family, watching my lil sisters grow, make sure my mom and dad are okay, support them whenever they need. Built my own family, being a loving and care mother, a good wife and content. I dont like the feeling when everything seems sliding so fast I lose the control of time.I lost the grasp of reality. yep, I lost the control of time.
and If Im brave enough I wont be this enthusiastics in pursuing my career, yep, Im coward enough to start and manage my own life. Do things I totally like..start a business in creative industry or pursuing master. damn I hate to confess but I cant let go this because I also has responsibilities to fulfill.
Yep, Life is about choices, I try to complaint less because I actually also grateful for what I have now but sometimes it just so hard to realize whatever choices we have there always one we 'had' to choose....
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