Life.File.Efil

I feel exhausted
Physically and emotionally
I want something that more laid back
something more me


Maybe it is because everything at work are so uptight,
the deadline, the schedule... everything.
I feel kinda overwhelm..


But, it is a process. Of me growing, taking chances and doing life
for deep in my heart, I hope one day I will be able to change direction
going into place that I really want, do things I am really cool at..

I miss those corridor, when I can just walk passing through shelves of book,
type my laptop like crazy, browse journals like eating cookies..
being truly fascinated by science..
listen to words I never hear
See miracles I never imagine
And I feel burst of amazement...

Being pregnant

It is a nice thing knowing that I will have a small tiny baby, my own baby.

so Glad, buut, to be honest pregnancy is not an easy thing (atleast for me).

I've just past my 1st trimester and it went like super roller coaster.

The nausea the constant fatigue and sickness. argh.

Alhamdulillah I manage to get through it, with amazing support from my lovely husband.

Now, my baby is 15 weeks old, just having his/her first fingerprints and start to recognize

light. Havent experiencing any kicking yet but hopefully soon she/he shows some moves. Yes baby, dance as you like.... :)

anyway, Iam also super glad that I work in nutrition company, therefore I have quite

well rounded knowledge regarding pregnancy and baby's nutrition related. Really hope

the next 6 months will run smooth, am super healthy and the delivery process will be

just easy....amiin.

Aaand, my baby will not be bond to colour, boy or girl she/he is, any colour will be

freely use to add the cuteness. why?. who knows my baby is a gothic baby girls?, she will

look prettier wearing dark brown/black/grey..Oor..what if He is a cheerful baby boy?

isnt occasional pink or orange will be very cute?.

Hehe.