A grown up decision

It is not easy to be a grown up. Problems become our daily encounter and it is not always easy to response towards such difficult situation with wise. sometimes, our mind and our heart just say different ideas. I've been thinking lately, take such a huge decision is not easy...

it took courage and sacrifice, but whats important is i am feeling happy and enjoy...
It is only a matter of choice and I choose to look for something that make me smile, something that i passionate about....

bismillah, may God strengthen me...
gonna meet a quite tough situation, I should face no matter what....

Jolly Good.. :D

I'm feeling fine and content, kinda on fire...
My mood been positive and I feel strong. if i contemplate the fluctuation of my moods, I'm afraid i'l fall into bipolar disorder category...hehe..I hope it's just because the pressure only... :p

anyway, goin home soon and I'm excited..
my lil sister gonna have her national exam and I really hope she will doing it well... :D

my holiday gonna be fun, I can feel it...

Happy-Holiday-soon peeps!

kisses.

What I Love

I love cooking and i'll love it If I finally confident in taking the path of my life...as I want.

in the mean time, I'll just do my best...

fettucini saus ayam Pedas

a lil light

last night, I read one of my Juniors blogs..they mentioned me..as one who inspired them. well, i don't mean to be cocky but it is a compliment, indeed...I'm not just kind of happy but also motivated. I've been losing my spirit lately, ups and down and nearly give up..but, seeing what I've did before and how I am actually able to fight...those blogs remind me how to bounce back and struggle..like the old time.. :)

i feel like there is a small fire in me, which almost died but then light up again...

funny things, when I shut down my room's lamp..I see a spot of light flying around on the ceiling, a fire flight is trapped in my room...it was wonderful..is it a sign? oh I am such a superstitious girl..hee...

oh I cant wait for a holidaay... :D

aargh

I've been devoutly face my Pc in order to make my quartal 1 presentations. It's been almost the whole day and my head get dizzy. still managing the framework and contents..hopefully it will be done by tomorrow..atleast 80% of it..now, I'll just enjoy the rest of my weekend time...

in the mean time, I wish you guys pray me tons of luck...


heee

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Frankly speaking...

Iam one of those who are unsure about what I will be at the end...still figuring it out while doing this. Yep,it is a commitment I took and I will do it with full responsibility. I simply hope I wont be too dragged away with this, instead, I hope I'll keep my passion and dream alive. One day I will continuing my education,get a master degree and start my own business. Those are what I called as dream that aligned with my passion: knowledge and creativity.

I enjoy learning (academically) as I enjoy researches. they sharpen my judgement and shape my reasoning. I simply love being a hoplessly curious person. In other hand, I also love designing and freed my wild ideas into something fun and creative. It is bit sad to realize how little time I have to read and draw. :'(

well, I learnt a lot these days. I knew I've been complaining a lot about how this took a toll on my physical condition. I also very much stressed out due to daily-always-come-up-problems I should face.

But, just now I talked with my friend, a nice and lovely girl (well, not really,haha!) who isnpired me with her work ethic. well, she might work at the office, but I believe it is actually as tiring as workin on the field. she is a friend I met when we're in the selection process for my company. She was accepted as MT HR for one of my company CBU. So, I just talked with her (through BBM sih, hee) and I know she is such a workaholic. a severe one I might call. hehe.it just amazing to see her passion in working while looking just 'fine'. haha. Frankly speaking, I am a bit ashamed of my self for being such a spoilt girl who complaint a lot..hahaa...I know out there, a lot people who work harder than me...

so, from now on, I promise I'll try to lessen my complaints and choose to see the bright side...the bright side..the bright side............. :)

Tring! I got an Idea..

I always love seafood, especially crabs...oh I love crabs and big-sized-shrimp...cook em with saus asam manis, saus padang, saus tiram or whatever I'll leave the plate clean...hehee
since I love them so much and quiet experienced in cooking them I think Im gonna do something about it...

hopefully, this will run well n smooth...


amiiin...

bismillah...

if I can dream it, I can have it!

:)

a memoir

I consider my self as a person who think too much and too futuristic. I want my fingers to dance and write beautiful rhyme but sometimes all those words disappear in a sudden stop. it is funny how my brain works, it always filled with thought, mostly about my worry over things, but then there will be a time i feel lighter as if my mind been refreshed with new bright thought.

I know how powerful the mind is, and i hate it when i think or worry too much my head get hurts, literally. it is just I wish I know the secret to control my mind to always see the bright side and jolly good point of view. In the other hand, regardless any other thing I've ever complaint about, I DO GRATEFUL to Allah for everything I have, I lost and I about to get...

I am grateful that my family are healthy and in a good condition, I am grateful that I could see and feel an experience with different depths compare to other people. I am grateful that even when I'm full with anger I realize how important is a thing called as tolerance...

I simply pray that I could get closer to my family, spend more time with them and be there whenever there is a simple funny jokes or an event to celebrate...as a family...

Nearest dream

Okay, honestly what I have in my mind (mostly) is actually the idea of getting married. starting my own family. I love the vision of my self arranging a lot of things for my future family, the house, the kitchen, the foods, the daily quarrel...hehe.

I love imagining me and my boyfriend finally together forever (amiin!). Its gonna be exciting because I will finally will have someone I own (haha,imperialist!). Someone that belong to me and I could share everything with.

hopefully, everything will run smooth and one day (soon I hope) I could be there, safe and sound and happy.