So This is it...

Well, I never really imgaine what is it feel like to be working and what is actually we do when we work. It appears, what we do is basically like doing assignments at school, difference is the assignments are never stops and it sequentially come with no one really supervise us. I was doing this presentation for my division and last night i was staying at 22.00 pm. it was so quiet, i just heard sound of keyboard clicking. such an experience.

on my way home (well, its not a home it is kosan actually) i saw the lights from skyscraper building, the blitz light from cars that passing by and the sound of construction worker near my office. it was weird, i al most feel nothing. numb like there's nothing to fear or worried about. all i was thinking was, I want something different. something totally liberating....

there's a lot of things that i ideally want but i cant do. the more loose and free-spirit character in me that somehow always dancing around inside my mind. usually come at my spare time.hehe. the idea of wearing light floral dress, carrying Mp3 player and running here and there like there's nothing hold me. which of course not possible yet, cz im doing a 9 to 5 routine just like billions other people.

well, for me, life is an occasional bitch. i gotta deal with oh-so-serious-life-is. i feel like the more i grown up, the harder life gets. I'm so dead if i keep letting my self goes into this forever. the idea of being a company employee is not my cup of tea, it is a mere way of survival. it doesnt mean i took it lightly and doesnt put my best effort at work, it just i want, believe, and plan on something else. we'll see..