Iam a Mom

Holla..

I am now a mom..

My baby daughter was  born on March 3rd 2013 with C-section labour.

We named her Aubrey Azkadina Rivai..

it was a joyful moment having her, seeing her for the first time and successfully having IMD after the opt...

whilst, there's another story behind that..

After months of planning for normal birth, it appears that the doctor suggest for C-sect option because of some medical concern. After that suggestion, the next day we decided to have the opt. in Mitra Plumbon Hospital.

I was kinda nervous for never have it planned, thinking about the opt table and the risk and etc..kinda sligthly freak me out. But, Have to face it after all.. so at 1 pm I enter the opt room, which is crazy cold and being cathethered and should wait for 2 hours because the doc having another labour downstairs..sucks because my husband cant enter the opt room..so there I were alone, almost having hypothermia in the opt room..

Anyway, I never really thinking what is being a mother except having a cute adorable baby in my arm. Surpriiiiiiseeee.... I was in total shock...

After the opt done and the anaesthetic was off, I start to feel the excruciating pain, I cant move, my breast were heavily engorge and it painful like hell..while..I have to breastfed my baby..while  breastfeeding was also super painful because first-timer feeding make the nip crack and create lesion.. triple the pain, and I should keep going..

And after that, being heavily fatigue and catch a cold, I have to wake up every 2 hours to do the breastfeed routine..it was tough..physically and emotionally draining..there was night when I was shivering in cold, almost cant wake up for I don't have the energy but my baby is thirsty..so I woke up and breastfed her, holding all the pain that scream in my body..I was almost gave up and plan to give her formula milk, thanks to my husband who always support and strengthen me, that bad bad bad idea went sour fast, :).

Alhamdulillah, I've recovered, get back into health and adjusting my schedule...now, I am feeling serene, I've dealt with this motherhood routine. I don't know other mother story, but this is mine, and yes for me the first weeks was tough..but all the stretch mark, pain, nip crack and fatigue are worth..the peaceful face of my baby..

Mommy loves you very much Aubrey, we can do it together..

Now I know how hard being a mother is...