I develop worrying habit : left the office at 21.00 Pm everyday. I believe in hard work, but I am afraid this work hour routine will do me no good in the future. Well, hopefully, after next two weeks (which I predict will be no room to breathe) everything run back to normal. normal meaning home by 17.00 Pm.
Btw, lately (perhaps due to exhaustion) I become very sensitive and easily explode. I find many thing as stressing and painful. So many time, I just want to escape and run and free my self from this plan. I think all i need is the strong support and affection from people around me so that I can survive this. At this point, I even not sure about everything. but once you step your foot in a home it isn't easy to just step back and withdrawn.
Lesson is, it takes a solid communication to make things work. otherwise, it will be another flying saucer competition in the house.haha. funny thing is, I will go into an institution that ( Iam afraid) I don't fully believe. I dont have any jovial example of how this institution gives true happiness for anyone in it. all I have are the dysfunctional almost crazy one. so, yeah. idk. I simple want it good, and will try my best to have a good one.
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