NYE 2011

Let's see the new year resolution I made and wrote in this blog in Dec 2010...

1. Eating less noddles n eat healthy (thinking of starting my workout regime, new swimsuit as a start! :))

I'm not sure I ate less noddles but I start swimming once or twice this year (haha).  bad thing is I develop the habit of consuming junk food. Oh why delivery food make everything too easy.

2. Read 12 books with varied tittle

bought and get more than 12 books, but only read 3  ( buy.ol.ogy, the red queen, jane eyre)

3. Watch more TV serials (Mad men, Bones, etc)

sure did, i watched castle, mad men, lie to me, friend with benefits, game of throne.

4. Add 3 new-real-best friends from work

I think I have even more. :)

5. Got engaged or even better (ahem!it's sound more like a hope rather than resolution,ha3!)

Alhamdulillah....nope not engage (by my definition, but plan to get married is yes)

6. successfully finished my 12 months orientation with awesome remark! :P

damn, the program is prolonged till February but Im feeling optimistic..

7. write more insightful stories on my blog

Did I? i'll give my silent reader  the pleasure to judge..hehe

8. save money consistently every months

I did, from the very 1st salary....it just a cold asset I cant use, anyway, I double saving now.. :)
9. always enjoy and grateful for everyday ahead! :)

well, mostly I am...

yay, mostly the resolution was accomplished, regardless the degree of success.hehe.

and for the year of 2012, Of course I made my resolution, this time more ambitious and tough. hehe, I'll share it next year to see whether my resolutions are achieved or not.

Anyway, It just happen to me an event that broke my heart where I was deeply sad.  But, life wont stop there right? maybe,  it is me need to adjust. Not to put my hope too high, not too naively dream for sweet jolly things for life is too real to be nice the whole time. I learn to give up the idea of romanticism. I dont want to get hurt and disappointed. so, better find a way to protect my self right?. I stop hoping other people will fully understand me, sympathize my feeling. I decided to stop loving any beautiful romantic ideas. I hate flowers, chocolate, candles, surprises. I lost the long to be loved. I dont need it anymore. I..emptied my heart. and it feels much much better this way. I might still hold people's hand, smiles, hugs and laugh. But, deep down here, emotions are gone. I'll just gonna keep everything I feel for myself. I will not ask or demand anything. I'll be good and nice and boring, just like stepford wife.

I'll start to live for my self. Go out, run, sing and smile all alone.Keep everything for my self, wont share it with anyone. Untill one day, there will be someone who can win my heart back. :) ( this part I should delete because I was being too much, my bad..haha) Fact is, I blinded my judgement based on one failing action but didnt see the whole picture. Thanks to Dinar to remind me to be more respectful towards precious experience love has brought to me, not only the sad part but the jolly and sweet moments.