EGO

I feel a series of energy loss lately. (okay, there's no such thing since energy is shifting never really just gone).
point is, I feel quite tired, phisically and emotionally. Gloom. bruyant.

I feel worn out. Rush form my work, plan and decisions I should address in short timing.

and the punch line will be how I feel distant with one person I always close with.

I have such big Ego and Anger.

I'm able to just snapped and ruin things.

and the more I need to attach the fewer chances are coming.

ooh, where are you gone peaceful nice time?.

or maybe It  is a sign.

that I'm not ready at all............................................................................................................................


while, in this riot of thoughts, there he is one from my naive past.
rgggh.
Good news I'm so grown up I wont fall in the same trick.

Is it because I'm more mature?
Or is it because I actually do not need someone to strengthen me, to fill in me?.
Is it i am sometimes feel so weak or I unconsciously weaken my self so that I feel the long of other person existence?

It's a sweet thing but at the end it will be only erased by the coming wave.

so what's the point?